I had one of the most fantastic days of my life last Saturday (I am on hyperbole mode because of my happiness so pardon me for using everything in superlative). After 6 years of separation, I am reunited with people whom I shared some of my most memorable and most important experiences in life. I can't believe how a space between our laughter can be so intense that even the short span of time we have spent was not enough to fill the void. Needless to say, there were moments of awkwardness and feeling of unease but because of how much memories and experiences we've spent together, we are slowly easing in.
With all the memories we had together, it is quite appalling that we feel uneasy and quite reluctant to share and create new memories. Maybe the 6 -year gap was a really long time to drastically change people. Physically, it is quite obvious that we are very different people now. But emotionally and mentally - it's quite hard to fathom. The thing is, change is definitely constant and that is to be expected. But change is something that is quite hard to accept. Maybe I did change like they did as well. Hence, the void between us all, the space that separated us all is quite a challenge to fill.
But these people were there for me when I had no one but myself. We helped each other the times we needed help the most. We shared so many great memories together and it's always nice to reminisce; talking about past events that made us laugh, past events that made us cry, and past issues that made us question each other. Nevertheless, we were a family.
And as a family, we are slowly but surely easing in. We may not be the best of friends anymore but we still know each other like we were living together again. We may not talk to each other all the time and share things that happen to us each day but we hold a special place in each other's heart. We were a family, broken now but friends nonetheless.
These were the people who became my family when my 'real' family were miles away from me. I immensely miss those times when we would do nothing but take pictures all day with my super old Kodak camera with film. I miss the times when we would just hang out really late at night in the cold streets up in the mountains. I miss the times when we would just laugh at each other all the time. I do miss this family; I do miss my friends. We may have a gap between us today but i know that in the future we will be able to fill that gap and become a whole family again. Slowly, we are easing in and filling up the void.
An emotional post, eh? I just miss my friends who I grew up with (for 2 years) and the people who helped me become more independent. :)
top and skirt: Jellybean | pumps: Call It Spring | clutch and earrings: Accessorize