Saturday, September 29, 2012

Love your Body

Yep, sounds like the Dove commercial. I have been meaning to write something about it because I do have firsthand experience with hating my own body. I remember telling myself once that when I graduate from college, the first thing I will spend on is a boob job. I wanted big boobs; something along the lines of Pamela Anderson and many other playboy bunnies.

When I was in sixth grade, I had been envious of many girls my age already developing their bodies. They have started forming breasts and they wore a bra all the time. I never wore a bra until I was in High School because really, there is nothing to "bra" on my chests. I didn't have my menstruation until a month before graduation so my body looked like a kid's until then (even until now, actually). As I watch my fellow classmates and batchmates become sexier and boys always notice how they look sexier than before, I started feeling low. I always question why am I developing late in the game? Why do they look like that and I look like this? The situation gave me low self esteem. But hey, I was in sixth grade. I was 12 and so are most of my classmates. I was not the only one having this dilemma.


Friday, September 21, 2012

I am a Wallflower

I am not afraid to broadcast to the world that I am a wallflower - or at least I used to be. Some of my friends might disagree on that one because most of them have always perceived me to be confident and self-assured  - but definitely not condescending.

I would never admit before that I am a wallflower. I actually thought that I wasn't because I was the kid who always gets attention. A grew up as a kid who always had confidence. A lot of people thought I was a pretty child simply because I have fair skin, I have a pair of golden brown eyes, and  I have curly dark brown hair. Many adults would even say I look like a doll. Others would exclaim I look like a princess. So I believed them. I felt pretty. I felt like a princess. I felt invincible (or infinite, as Stephen Chbosky would put it). But that very ideal became my undoing. (Just a disclaimer: I am not saying that I am pretty. I am saying what people said to me because where I live, people are mostly tanned so when you have fair skin they instantly think you're pretty).
 

Wednesday, September 05, 2012

Fifty Shades of Opinions

Judging from the title, yes, I will be discussing the most controversial book of the year, Fifty Shades of Grey. Now before you even exit out of this post, I dare you to read on. I am not here to tell you a story; I am here to discuss the book with you.

I read all three books in less than a week and I think this is the fastest I have read a book. I am a very slow reader because I have a very short attention span. I usually read books a chapter a day and Twilight actually took me 1 chapter in like one month (that is how badly I hated the book). But I found this trilogy quite interesting not only because of the erotic stuff but more because of the controversies underneath. The fact that people had bipolar reactions about it means it made an impact, and as a writer that is what you want. You want people to notice and discuss because it adds value to your work. And that is how you earn big time as a writer.
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