There is the saying that no man is an island. No man can live on his own. We need other people to produce our food. We need other people to do certain services for us. We need other people for social interaction. But sometimes, depending too much on other people gets to a point where you can't live on your own anymore. You draw energy from other people to help you survive. Some people become too clingy to the point where they can't function and do the things they want to do without the help of other people.
I, too, need other people to help with certain things. However, I am not the clingy type and I like doing things on my own. I mean, why should I allow other people determine the things that I want to do, right? If I want to go shopping, I go shopping alone. If I want to eat somewhere, I eat alone. I do a lot of things on my own and I am not really one to care. I have always liked the independence and liberty that comes with doing things on my own. But that does not mean I am a loner or an anti-social. I just don't depend on other people too much.
I work at home so I rarely go out of the house. When I was still studying and working as a medical representative for a local company, I was rarely at home. I am always out and about and going different places. I liked the adventure going on different places brings. I am always with friends and we hung out like A LOT. But when I started working at home, I started to feel lonely. I don't really have colleagues I can talk to in person (aside from my editors who I talk about work-related stuff only via email) and my friends are all busy with their careers. I, on the other hand, is stuck at home talking to my computer and my dogs who will never understand me. I barely see the outside world anymore and I feel like I have built a fortress and I am trapped inside.
Yeah, working at home can oftentimes become boring because there is really no one you can talk to and I don't really advise this type of work for single and young people who are still in their prime years seeking for adventure. It is an ideal job for mothers taking care of babies. But because I have something that I really want to do, I can't be a corporate employee with regular working hours.
Then one day, just out of boredom, I decided to try doing things on my own. I went some places I wanted to go to and ate somewhere I wanted to eat. I just gave in. It gave me a sense of joy and adventure that I have deeply missed. My friends - they will always be my friends even if I don't get to talk to them all the time. We may have different interests and new friends now but we will all still remain as friends. We do see each other occasionally so I am not really a loner. And besides, I haven't shut myself from people. I do get to meet new people sometimes and I socialize with them so I am still a sociable being. It's just that I have chosen to be independent and I don't depend on other people for the things that I want to do. If they can't accompany me to go shopping or dine out, it's fine, really. I can go on my own because I choose to be independent. If we both have the time, then that is when we can finally be together.
sweater: H&M | dress and bracelet: Forever 21 | necklace: handmade | oxfords: Trunk Show
I really want the rain to stop because I want to have dinner somewhere today. I don't like getting my shoes wet when I go out. :( (written at 2:46PM 7/28/2013)
Have a blessed Sunday!