Thursday, December 05, 2013

Half Empty

I have a confession: I am a pessimist.

People have told me before that I am good at encouraging and giving advice. Unfortunately, I can't seem to do the same for myself. I always tell people to look on the bright side. I always tell them to never give up. However, as much as I want to tell myself the same thing, I can never seem to let go of my pessimistic side. I always tend to see the worst in everything. I am always scared of so many unnecessary things. Sometimes being a pessimist can be a good thing. But most of the time, it hinders you from living a great life.


When people come to me in search for some kind words or advice of some sort, I always tell them things that are positive. Heck, I could be a great guidance counselor! But as they say, those who give the best advice are usually those who can't even help them selves. True, in my case. There are times when I just feel really lost and I frequently think of the worst case scenario. I like to encourage people and give them comforting words but I can't seem to give that to myself. I become the pessimist I try so hard to hide from other people when it comes to things that has to do with me and my future. I am paranoid that bad things will happen to me if I go home really late. I always think that I will lose all the good things that I have right now and that my life will eventually turn sour. 

I partly blame this paranoia to media. I mean, with all the bad things you see and hear on the news, how can you not be scared? But other than that, it is mostly myself who I should blame. I have always been very vulnerable when it comes to my emotions. I also tend to hold on to things so much that I hate it when it suddenly disappears. I don't like the feeling of getting left behind. In a gist, I am a very emotional person. Try as I might to show my strong and dauntless side, at the end of the day, I am still that fragile girl who needs to be protected and who wants to be cared for. 


I have always said on this blog that I am a sheltered child. I have always had my parents, my friends, and our house helpers to look out on me. I have always received much love and care from the people around me. This is why I get too attached to people that more often than not, when I separate from them, I suffer from separation anxiety (I don't publicly show that I am sad, though. I do it when I am alone in my room). Being protected and always showered with love and care, I became too emotional. There are overflowing emotions around me. I am too used to these emotions that when I suddenly had to live on my own and face the reality of life alone that I became wary and scared. There's no one to protect me now and no one to gracefully give me all the love, care, and protection that I need. I am on my own. 

Living alone has its perks and drawbacks. It teaches you how to be independent and be strong but at the same time, it teaches you how to be a pessimist. Because you are on your own now, you have to expect the worst of everything so you are prepared. You have to carefully protect and guard your possessions to avoid losing them. You have to be distrustful of people because you never know when they will take advantage of you. Sometimes, it is nice to be on your own because it teaches you so many great things about life. But at the same time, you have to be careful not to lose your sanity and become the ultimate pessimist (or worse, paranoid).

 Hat and Crochet Top: SM Dept. Store | Shorts: Forever 21 | Silver Glitter Flats: Zara
Clutch: Accessorize | Necklace: YRYS | Bracelet: Hip Hop Bling


Little by little, I am trying my best to change. Despite the misfortune we experience and despite the perils that await you, I try to think that the world is still a great place to live in. Seeing everything half empty will only hinder me from achieving the great things that I want for my life. I guess it is just a matter of faith in God that he will give you the best of this life - in due time.

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24 comments :

  1. The dress is so amazing! You have a wonderful style <3

    I was wondering if we could follow each other. It would be great, just let me know :)

    x Maria / Retro Street Station

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  2. Gorgeous outfit and love your shoes so much! Have a good day dear!
    xx Easy Outfits, by Pip

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  3. Oh really lovely and cute outfit, now I´m following you in GFC and Bloglovin´I hope your follow me back in both!
    xx

    I want invite you to Join to my SammyDress Christmas Giveaway! For win a Dress, Cardigan or Blazer~

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  4. you look so pretty ! i am following you back via GFC# 336 and twitter also :)
    xx
    www.ambifashion.com

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  5. Hi Jenn! In some way I get you, you should try to be more positive and trust you, at the end, you will learn that you cant control how things go but you always have the control of yourself and choose how to behave. The only way to make things happen in your life is to believe in them and never give up. Looking adorable btw, I like the hat!:) Kisses! xo

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  6. Great post! Lovely outfit you look very adorable and cute. Would you like to follow each other on GFC? Just let me know so I can follow back. Thank you.
    xox
    Lenya
    FashionDreams&Lifestyle

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  7. You look so pretty in your girly outfit! I appreciate your opinion on my last post, have a great Friday doll!

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  8. i can relate somehow, they say sometimes we like to keep our negative approach in life because it gives us a sense of protection like if we expect the worst it sort of prepares us for the worst. im trying to change that about me tho. nice to see your posts again sis :)

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  9. Loved your post and think that having a positive attitude is essential to achieving your dreams and living a happy life. As long as you recognize that negativity will only hinder you, I think you're on a path to overcoming the obstacle!

    Feedback aside, I love your sense of style! You look absolutely beautiful :) I really enjoy your blog so far and would love to follow each other--please join my GFC and I'll follow you right back!

    StylizedLuxe
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    xo Jess

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  10. I get what you mean about being pessimistic. I used to be like that all the time. But I learned to just let those feelings go. I also think the media has a lot to do with it too. That's partly why I stopped watching TV.

    Anyway, your outfit is really cute! Just found your blog and I'm glad I did :) I'm now following you on GFC, Bloglovin, and Lookbook.

    xo Azu

    www.raven-locks.blogspot.com

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  11. Lovely look sweety :)

    Kiss
    http://www.mademoisellemode.com/

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  12. Looking so pretty!:)

    xoxo
    www.its-dash.com

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  13. Ako, I still feel like I have so much hope in everything despite of all the shit I've been through. It's something innate or because, maybe, I feel like things couldn't get any worse after what I've gone through. I've always been good at encouraging people too. And, well, I'm not perfectly optimistic cos I still do have times na I feel like there's nothing good coming out of things but then, I retreat, take a deep breath and jump into the cliff again - come what may, take the risk, let's see where this leads me.

    The whole look has this central park feel in it ah. Very comfy and chic :)


    xoxo,
    Gelleesh.com

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  14. That outfit is absolutely gorgeous!!! Your blog is lovely!
    ♥ I follow you now!

    http://www.MARTASFASHIONDIARY.com/

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  15. Cute Dress ,you look gorgeous! Love the Hat :)
    xoxo

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  16. nice top and shorts :)

    http://www.lavinajampit.blogspot.com/

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  17. so true. i give great advice (well that's subjective...) but am clueless when it comes to figuring out my problems.... beautiful white top and outfit ♥

    xoxo hobovogue.com . ღ

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  18. nice top and shorts! love the shoes :)

    http://www.lavinajampit.blogspot.com/

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  19. nice top and shorts! love the shoes :)

    http://www.lavinajampit.blogspot.com/

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  20. Look at those cute sparkle loafers!! Darling look girl xo

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  21. Perfect outfit ! Your top is very cute and I love your loafers :)

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