Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Short Post: Unstable


Stability is something that all of us search for. But sometimes there are circumstances that rock the boat, make us feel uneasy, and make you question how stable you are. In such cases, most of us go for flight - either because they don't have a choice or because they are too afraid to fight for stability. But some of us prefer to battle and reclaim stability.

There are things in my life right now that make me feel uneasy. I have to be on-guard just so I can maintain the calmness and balance in my life. But on the other hand, I don't have peace of mind. Yes, I am battling for stability but I am no longer sure how long I can hold on. I have become comfortable where I am and I can definitely say I am enjoying every minute of it. But this challenge is something that wears me down. I know change is good but I am not yet ready to let go of current situation. Now I have to think carefully of my next move and the repercussions thereafter.

My life right now is like a chess match: you have to guess the next move of your opponent so you can make the right move. It's hard. It's difficult. It's challenging. I don't know how long I can keep this up but for now, I have to. There are certain things I need to settle before I can waive the white flag. But to surrender is really not in my option - unless I can no longer handle the stress and the pressure. Just imagine waking up everyday asking how long this calmness will last - the calm before the storm as they call it. 

I am in a lot of stress lately - since I got back from vacation. I hope all this will be over soon. I hope...


Sunglasses, Belt and Clutch: Forever 21 | Dress: SM Department Store
Denim Button-down: Terranova | Necklace: from Netherlands | Watch: Anne Klein
Bracelet: from Baguio | Socks: from Korea | Sneakers: Cath Kidston



Sunglasses, Belt and Clutch: Forever 21 | Dress: SM Department Store
Denim Button-down: Terranova | Necklace: from Netherlands | Watch: Anne Klein
Bracelet: from Baguio | Socks: from Korea | Sneakers: Cath Kidston



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