Sunday, November 01, 2015

Hate and Nothingness

Negative emotions suck the life out of me. Lately I've been feeling tired and lethargic because of a certain someone I have to work with who I really don't want to work with. I've been feeling infuriated and annoyed whenever I see this certain person. He is the most incompetent and dishonest person I have encountered in my entire life. I don't want to deal with him. I don't want to see him. I don't want to interact with him. But I am left with little choice. We work in a very small team and it is inevitable for us to work together. I may hate him and I may not want to work with him but our circumstances do not allow us to separate. Either I quit or he quits. The latter is like saying pigs can fly. The former is the only little option I have. But then again, why should I? He may be a person I don't want to work with but I can't let such a thing ruin my plans for the future. I cannot let this person dictate how I live my life. I just need to calm myself and keep in mind not to let this person affect my life.

Top and Sneakers: Stradivarius | Overalls: from Bangkok | Bag: Betsey Johnson
Watch: Swatch | Lips: Mac Odyssey

In other news, lately I don't have the energy to take pictures nor write anything. I don't have any thoughts at all. All I can find in this black hole inside me are the negative emotions I have for that certain colleague which is now slowly dissipating and turning into nothingness. In short, writer's block. Hence I will keep this post short and simple. I want to go on a short break from blogging and the internet but my other persona doesn't want to. I will try to fill the void in my brain with thoughts and experiences that will hopefully help me come up with a much better article.

Lately I have noticed the quality of my writing regressing. I want to be more sensible but then my sentences come out as fragmented; scattered. I will do something about this and when I publish next, I promise it will be insightful, sensible, and worth your time. I do hope you still took the time to learn/pick up something worthwhile in this article (though I know a few days from now when I read this I will feel appalled at how scattered my thoughts are and how unintelligible my sentences are).


  1. We all have had those circumstances in the past. But at least you're aware of it. This is such an introspective post and thanks for opening up - it's not easy to share personal emotions. On a brighter note, you look amazing!

    Abby of Life in the Fash Lane

  2. love it!
    kisses from dubai ♥

  3. You're a really nice girl, I hope negative feelings don't overwhelm you. I know them well, hope you can fight for your happiness :)))


  4. Aww I'm sorry to hear that you're in a situation like that. It is quite difficult to deal with, especially with the limited options available. Hope it gets sorted, but I suppose in the mean time it is approaching it with a positive mindset, despite how hard it can be :(

    Anna xx

  5. Oh, I am very sorry for you... Your outfit is adorable.