Sunday, November 01, 2015

Hate and Nothingness


Negative emotions suck the life out of me. Lately I've been feeling tired and lethargic because of a certain someone I have to work with who I really don't want to work with. I've been feeling infuriated and annoyed whenever I see this certain person. He is the most incompetent and dishonest person I have encountered in my entire life. I don't want to deal with him. I don't want to see him. I don't want to interact with him. But I am left with little choice. We work in a very small team and it is inevitable for us to work together. I may hate him and I may not want to work with him but our circumstances do not allow us to separate. Either I quit or he quits. The latter is like saying pigs can fly. The former is the only little option I have. But then again, why should I? He may be a person I don't want to work with but I can't let such a thing ruin my plans for the future. I cannot let this person dictate how I live my life. I just need to calm myself and keep in mind not to let this person affect my life.





Top and Sneakers: Stradivarius | Overalls: from Bangkok | Bag: Betsey Johnson
Watch: Swatch | Lips: Mac Odyssey

In other news, lately I don't have the energy to take pictures nor write anything. I don't have any thoughts at all. All I can find in this black hole inside me are the negative emotions I have for that certain colleague which is now slowly dissipating and turning into nothingness. In short, writer's block. Hence I will keep this post short and simple. I want to go on a short break from blogging and the internet but my other persona doesn't want to. I will try to fill the void in my brain with thoughts and experiences that will hopefully help me come up with a much better article.

Lately I have noticed the quality of my writing regressing. I want to be more sensible but then my sentences come out as fragmented; scattered. I will do something about this and when I publish next, I promise it will be insightful, sensible, and worth your time. I do hope you still took the time to learn/pick up something worthwhile in this article (though I know a few days from now when I read this I will feel appalled at how scattered my thoughts are and how unintelligible my sentences are).

9 comments :

  1. We all have had those circumstances in the past. But at least you're aware of it. This is such an introspective post and thanks for opening up - it's not easy to share personal emotions. On a brighter note, you look amazing!

    xo,
    Abby of Life in the Fash Lane

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  2. love it!
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  3. You're a really nice girl, I hope negative feelings don't overwhelm you. I know them well, hope you can fight for your happiness :)))

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  4. Aww I'm sorry to hear that you're in a situation like that. It is quite difficult to deal with, especially with the limited options available. Hope it gets sorted, but I suppose in the mean time it is approaching it with a positive mindset, despite how hard it can be :(

    Anna xx

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  5. Oh, I am very sorry for you... Your outfit is adorable.

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