Top: Dorothy Perkins | Inner: Forever 21 | Skirt and Shoes: Zara
Bag: Coach | Watch: Swatch: Necklace: Bershka
Lips: Tarte Amazonian Lip Butter in Plummy Rose
I am still in shock and in denial. I am still not over the fact that I won’t see your live performances anymore; that I won’t see your fierce stages; that I won’t hear your wonderful voices; that you as a group will no longer be there for me to wait. It hurt me deeply as a blackjack that you are disbanding. I was holding on to that thread of hope even though Minzy already left last May that the group will be coming back soon. I was hopeful despite only having three members and 2ne1 will never be the same. Still, there’s CL, Dara and Bom to look forward too. But that thread was cut too late. I wove it long enough and suddenly was cut. I am disappointed.
I knew it was too farfetched to hope when Minzy announced her departure from the group. But still, as an avid one, I want to hope. I want to dream that I will see you guys again even if one member left. It was palpable the fate of the group when that happened. But I wanted to believe that 2ne1 is still a group and that it won’t change.
Then 25 November 2016 came. I was on my way home. I was waiting in line for the jeep to arrive. I decided to turn on my mobile data so I can check my newsfeed on Facebook. One of my friends decided to rant about YG. I could not believe what I read. She said Nam Taehyun left winner and 2ne1 officially disbanded. I was in denial. I had to find authentic sources about this news. I tried Google. Soompi, Koreaboo, Allkpop – for Hallyu fans like me, these websites are the go-to sites for news about the hallyu world. They all reported the same thing. It is confirmed: Nam Taehyun left winner and 2ne1 disbanded. I almost fell to the ground and wanted to cry but I couldn’t (it would be too embarrassing).
This all sounds too exaggerated to non-kpop fans but as an avid fan, it deeply hurt me. I seriously loved this group and I don’t think I will love any other girl group as much as I loved them. I never saw them perform live even when they had their concert here back in 2014 (but I did see them in person as they were walking towards the fan meeting venue). They are stars that shine ever so brightly and it was devastating that I won’t get to see them light up the kpop world again as a group. But as they say, doors may close but windows will open. They may not be a group anymore but I will support them still. I will continue to watch out for their activities wherever they may be. 2ne1 will always be the best.
Thank you for the wonderful 7 years of giving us meaningful music, breaking barriers, and being different. You showed us that going against mainstream is a wonderful thing. You showed us that not all girl groups are supposed to be cute or pretty or sexy. You showed us that girls can be strong and fierce too. Thank you for just being you.
To CL, Dara, Bom and Minzy: 수고해서요! 고마워요! 영원히 사랑해요!