Monday, May 21, 2018

I Miss Writing

 Bali Swing. Bali, Indonesia 2018

2017 was a challenging year for me. Not because I had difficulties in life but more because I took on new roles that took time for me to get used to. A lot has happened and I am thankful for everything that I experienced. But on the other hand I had to let go of some things and writing was one of those things.

I still tried to write as much as I can because I felt like I had to. I felt bad for people who follow this blog (those who genuinely do, if you are still here after all this time) and I felt like I had a responsibility to keep on publishing. Anything was fine as long as I could publish something. But one day I just wasn't feeling good about anything I write. Everything felt awkward and fake. I tried but I am not happy with the quality of the articles. It is when I decided to stop and take a break. I need to find inspiration again. 


Watson's Bay. Sydney, Australia 2018

I was about to decide to shut down this blog once and for all. I mean, I am not gaining anything from doing this anyway. Yes, I do get sponsors from time to time and I thank them a lot for trusting me (and I don't even know if I was able to give back). But really, I am not gaining anything from writing a blog post aside from the lovely comments readers have left on my articles. So there really is no deep reason why I shouldn't shut down this blog. But when I think about all the time I invested in writing and editing photos, responding to comments, emails, and everything that happens behind the scenes, I just couldn't do it. I have invested so much in this blog and this is a reflection of me. My inner most thoughts are published here and I couldn't bear to throw it all away like that. This is a part of me. Also, this has been a space where I could freely express my thoughts. I have very few friends who I can freely express my thoughts to. I do know a lot of people but I don't feel comfortable opening up to them. Partly because I have been back stabbed before by people I trusted the most so now I take utmost caution to who I share my thoughts and life to. But here, I felt like people just accepted my thoughts and supported my opinion. I felt more comfortable here than I do in real life (exactly why trolls exist). Letting go of something that gave me so much freedom was difficult and I felt a little pang in my heart. 

With all that said, I may not update this blog as often as I used to (duh, obviously, I've been gone for months!). But I will whenever I can. Also, I will no longer be posting fashion-related articles because my interests have changed over the past months (mostly because I don't have the energy and the capacity to fix myself up for the camera). I will post mostly about my travels (but will no longer post those that I took last year and early this year as they are no longer relevant but if you are interested as to which places I have visited, you can follow my instagram @pinklemonjenn). 

I know this is a long post but thank you for reading.

Finn's Beach Club. Bali, Indonesia 2018

Three Sisters Rock, Blue Mountains. Sydney, Australia 2018

3 comments :

  1. Great post dear :) ♥

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  2. Lovely post dear! Have a great week! xx

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  3. Love your cute outfit.
    Have a nice day!

    Kathy's delight

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